THE PRAYER
DMX helped raise ME, specifically on It’s Dark and Hell Is Hot. So much so that in middle school I called myself KiMX. When it came to ME to name this thought stream “The Prayer”, I immediately begin to hear…
I come to you hungry and tired.
You give me food and help me sleep.
I come to you weak.
You give me strength and that’s deep.
You call me a sheep,
and lead me to green pastures.
Only asking that I keep the focus
in between the chapters.
ALHAMDULILLAH, for such a Loving Reminder.
The Prayer that I have been saying for the past two years transforms LIFE for ME every time I speak these words, “Use me GOD, show me how to take WHO I am, WHAT I have endured, and WHO I am becoming and use it for a purpose greater than myself.” I am Living inside of the GOD Dream for my Life, and I pray that my movements inspire others to do the same.
I was asked to speak at a mosque this past Sunday. ME!!! The one people called a heathen for having questions. (I wasn’t questioning God, I was questioning religious practices…there’s a difference.) I was asked to speak to the youth and share my GOD Light. It was so interesting because I found myself skirting around certain topics. For example, I desired to go in ablaze and say, “I AM GOD, YOU ARE GOD, THIS TREE IS GOD, THIS BEE IS GOD.” I read the room, so I refrained. I looked around at the physical environment and saw a building that has experienced very little upgrades. In that space, it could have been 1985, not 2023. The imam came in like a drill sergeant and demanded that no one was permitted to leave until after the Arabic lesson, not even to use the bathroom. I saw the youth tucking their tails and bowing their heads, looked to the adults and saw the exact same reflection. The first thing I thought was it’s the leadership (the “Robert Mugabe Effect”).
“It is important to draw wisdom from many different places. If we take it from only one place, it becomes rigid and stale.” -IROH, from The Last Airbender
Being in that space made ME think of the progression of leadership. How does an organization successfully grow to become an institution, honoring the input and wisdom of the old leadership AND respecting and valuing the perspectives of the new leadership? This is the current situation at UASC International.
I am no longer leaning on my own understanding. Why would I when I’ve been armed with such a powerful word spell… “Use me GOD. Show me how to take who I am, what I’ve endured, and who I am becoming, and use it for a purpose greater than myself.” I offer myself up from a self-regulating nervous system, standing firmly on my square like a tree planted by the water (much love to Ms. Hugee with the big breasts). I cast my uniqueness in the pot of this spiritual gumbo to ensure that in climbing Jacob’s Ladder, every rung AND every round continues to go higher and higher.
ALHAMDULILLAH
MODUPE
GYE NYAME
PRAISE GOD
HALLELUJAH
